Collin Locke Shelledy
It’s time to introduce you to our new addition, Collin Locke Shelledy. He joined our family November 17, 2017 at roughly 10:30 am. He weighed a whopping 8 pounds and was measured at 20 inches long. Recovery has been going well. I had a scheduled c-section, so my body didn’t go through labor, which has helped speed up the recovery process.
Ian had the past 2 weeks off, so we were able to marvel in our new addition together. It was a wonderful 2 weeks. Ian helped immensely with making sure I was comfortable, Owen was taken care of, and Collin was held or changed whenever necessary. He also filled our fridge and my belly with plenty of salami and other delicious deli meats.
One of the weirdest parts of welcoming another kiddo into our lives was seeing how Owen and Collin differed in looks. I thought baby #2 was going to look very similar to Owen, but I was wrong. Collin came out with blonde hair. And not a lot of it. Owen, on the other hand, had tons of brown hair and very defined eyebrows. Owen was also quite a bit smaller. It’ll be interesting to see how their personalities differ as well.
So far breastfeeding has gone much better than with Owen. Honestly, I struggled a lot with breastfeeding Owen. I’m not sure if it was due to being a new mom, Owen being a smaller baby, or a combination of the two, but feedings with Owen were difficult and supplemented with formula. When I had Collin, my number one goal (minus keeping him safe and healthy) was to make breastfeeding work for the both of us. While the first two weeks were predictably difficult due to really, really sore nipples and engorgement, Collin and I worked past it, and have been successfully and happily breastfeeding.
While breastfeeding has been a success, sleeping has not. Our biggest struggle is getting him to sleep in his co-sleeper without having a total breakdown. So far, we’ve been having him sleep in his Boppy, which is far from ideal. I’m reminding myself it just takes time and patience to get this whole sleeping thing down.
I suffered from postpartum depression with Owen, so that has been my biggest fear with Collin. It started when Owen was roughly 2-3 weeks old, so now that Collin is 2+ weeks old, I’m making sure to be aware of my feelings and hormones. I’m hoping I don’t get it again, but at least if I do, I’m aware of the signs and what to do when it does happen. I’m just trying to stay positive and focus on the beautiful baby Ian and I brought into the world.
Owen has adapted to Collin and sharing his parents’ love much better than expected. Yes, he still has his moments where he wants to be held when Collin is held, but overall, he just ignores him, which at this point is a godsend.
I have got to admit, while it’s a bit bittersweet to be done with my pregnancy (and most likely my last pregnancy), it feels nice not being pregnant. I’m slowly getting back into my regular clothes. Very slowly might I add. Only my stretchy jeans fit, but I’ll count that as a win. I’m able to have a drink with Ian at the end of the night (thank goodness for breast pumps), and I can get on the floor to play with my very active 20 month old without feeling out of breath or completely uncomfortable. I’m looking forward to working out again and focusing on getting my pre-Owen body back. It may never happen, which is okay, but at least I can try and focus a bit more on myself.
I have another 6 weeks of maternity leave and I’m going to soak it up as much as possible.